Tuesday, April 13, 2010

letting go

What I'm being "told" is to let go. The universe is sending me that message over and over again...through people, through objects, and through experiences. Unfortunately, letting go isn't always easy when it's mixed up with other strong emotions, difficulties, love, pain, etc. There are times, though, when letting go is the only action to take. I can only create my own life and effect my own destiny. Sometimes I fear that letting go means I'm giving up on a person or just throwing my hands up and saying "that's it! i'm done!" But what I know is that to let go of someone with love is to accept that they are separate and individual and also an act of self-care. Sometimes letting go is the most loving thing to do and the only act of love to carry out. It is accepting that there are things beyond my control, things I am powerless over and that people in my life will make their own choices and decisions for their own destiny and journey. It is replacing judgement with understanding and and allowing another to be a human being on a journey of self-discovery. I need to let go of that judgement and those "but" statements...."but what she's doing is so self-destructive!" "but she's going to hurt herself or someone else." "but, I love her." In the end, it is that love that will allow me to say "I love you so much that letting you go is the only thing left to do." And then, trust.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

“If you want to reach a state of bliss, then go beyond your ego and the internal dialogue. Make a decision to relinquish the need to control, the need to be approved, and the need to judge. Those are the three things the ego is doing all the time. It's very important to be aware of them every time they come up.” Deepak Chopra

I need this tattooed on my forehead....no, i wouldn't see it there....i need it on my arm.

i'm starting to do this chant....did it this morning and felt immediately calmer and more centered. practice practice practice...